Memories at Showdown Ranch

May I Go Now?

May I go now? Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain, I fought with all my might.
I've lived my life and done my best, an example I tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free?
I didn’t want to go at first. I fought all thru the night.
But something seems to draw me now, to a warm and loving light.

I want to go. I really do. It's difficult to stay.
But I will try the best I can, to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.
I know you’re sad and afraid, I can see it in your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know.
That my spirit will be close to you where ever you may go.

Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you too.
That’s why it’s hard to say goodbye and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say,
Because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.

If it be I grow old and weak,
And pain should wake me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle can't be won.

You will be sad, I'll understand,
Don't let your grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love and friendship stand the test.

We've had so many happy years,
What is to come will hold no fears,
You'll not want me to suffer, so,
When the time comes, please let me go.

I know in time, you too will see,
It is a kindness you do for me,
Although my mane its last has waved,
From pain and suffering, I've been saved.

Do not grieve that it should be you,
Who has decide this thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

Just a Horse!

From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a horse,"
or, that's a lot of money for just a horse".

They don't understand the distance travelled, the time spent, or the costs involved for
"just a horse." Some of my proudest moments have come aboutwith "just a horse."

Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a horse," but I did not once
feel slighted. Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a horse,"
and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a horse" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.

If you, too, think it's "just a horse," then you will probably understand phrases like
"just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise.""Just a horse" brings into my life
the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.

"Just a horse" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person. Because of "just a horse" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.

So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a horse" but an embodiment of all the hopes
and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of the moment.

"Just a horse" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day. I hope that someday they can understand that it's not "just a horse"
but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a woman."

So the next time you hear the phrase "just a horse" just smile, because
they "just" don't understand.

They gather and fly in the hush of the night time,
I hear them go by.
The horses of Memory thundering thru with flashing white fetlocks all wet with the dew.
When you lay me to slumber, no spot can you choose but will ring to the rythum of galloping shoes.
Under the daisys no grave be so deep but the hooves of the horses shall sound in my sleep.

You were tired, I saw it in your face.
The end was coming at a fast pace.
But, how I wanted you to stay...
In time, I came to understand,
your will was not my command.
Life just became too hard for you.
I didn't want to see.....but I knew..
You had to be where you could fly.
Roanie, It's so hard to say good-bye.
You were mine for all those years,
I'll miss you and cry my tears.
But I also know, that's okay..
for we'll be together again some day.

I just don't know what to say......

At first you were my link to Henry. Later I got to know you and all your unique little quirks that I had grown to love. From your wanting my approval on the awesome foal, that you just had, to the I'm the boss out here. I know you didn't want to leave. the proof was there when I walked into the barn and seen you standing with your month old filly. But someone greater had other plans for you and to stay with us was not going to be. All I can say is I miss you. Every rainy spring day, during foaling time, I will think of you. I miss you, my Brandy Girl.