May I Go Now?

May I go now? Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain, I fought with all my might.
I've lived my life and done my best, an example I tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free?
I didnít want to go at first. I fought all thru the night.
But something seems to draw me now, to a warm and loving light.

I want to go. I really do. It's difficult to stay.
But I will try the best I can, to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.
I know youíre sad and afraid, I can see it in your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that, and hope you'll always know.
That my spirit will be close to you where ever you may go.

Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you too.
Thatís why itís hard to say goodbye and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say,
Because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.

Miss Chessys Hancock

1996- 04/19/09

If it should be

If it be I grow old and weak,
And pain should wake me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle can't be won.

You will be sad, I'll understand,
Don't let your grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love and friendship stand the test.

We've had so many happy years,
What is to come will hold no fears,
You'll not want me to suffer, so,
When the time comes, please let me go.

I know in time, you too will see,
It is a kindness you do for me,
Although my mane its last has waved,
From pain and suffering, I've been saved.

Do not grieve that it should be you,
Who has decide this thing to do,
We've been so close, we two, these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

Lifter Jet

March 20, 1980 - Dec 1, 2003

Horse Memories

May 1999 - April 22, 2005
Broken Hearts forever
Just a Horse!

From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a horse,"
or, that's a lot of money for just a horse".

They don't  understand the distance travelled, the time spent, or the costs involved for
"just a horse." Some of my proudest moments have come aboutwith "just a horse."

Many hours  have passed and my only company was "just a horse," but I did not once
feel slighted. Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a horse,"
  and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a horse" gave me comfort  and reason to overcome the day.

If you, too, think it's "just a horse," then you will probably understand phrases like
"just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise.""Just a horse"  brings into my life
the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy.

"Just a horse" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person. Because of "just a horse" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.

So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a horse" but an embodiment of all the hopes
and  dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of  the moment.

"Just a horse"  brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and  the worries of the day. I hope that someday they can understand that it's not "just a horse"
but the thing that  gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a woman."

So the next time you hear the phrase "just a horse" just smile, because
they "just" don't understand.

Sunny and Sundance
We will never forget the fun we had.
They gather and fly in the hush of the night time,
I hear them go by.
The horses of Memory thundering thru with flashing white fetlocks all wet with the dew.
When you lay me to slumber, no spot can you choose but will ring to the rythum of galloping shoes.
Under the daisys no grave be so deep but the hooves of the horses shall sound in my sleep.

You were tired, I saw it in your face.
The end was coming at a fast pace.
But, how I wanted you to stay...
In time, I came to understand,
your will was not my command.
Life just became too hard for you.
I didn't want to see.....but I knew..
You had to be where you could fly.
Roanie, It's so hard to say good-bye.
You were mine for all those years,
I'll miss you and cry my tears.
But I also know, that's okay..
for we'll be together again some day.


I just don't know what to say......

At first you were my link to Henry. Later I got to know you and all your unique little quirks that I had grown to love. From your wanting my approval on the awesome foal, that you just had, to the I'm the boss out here. I know you didn't want to leave. the proof was there when I walked into the barn and seen you standing with your month old filly. But someone greater had other plans for you and to stay with us was not going to be. All I can say is I miss you. Every rainy spring day, during foaling time, I will think of you. I miss you, my Brandy Girl.

Cody you left too fast and too soon. I never regretted that weekend we drove nonstop to Kentucky. I got you sight unseen. Just because you had some silly habits that I liked. You filled Sunny shoes and then some. You could open your own gates and get your own grain. You didn't mind the bucket next to you when I needed a boost to get on your back. Or standing next to the tailgate of the truck so a rider could mount you. You never did quite get the nack of running but thats what I loved about you. If i needed my spirits lifted,I would just saddle you and go for a ride. You always put a smile on my face. I miss you Cody! I miss you agreeing with me.. you always nodded your head when I asked you a question. Again you made me smile. You didn't mind the gun going off when we robbed trains, you chased deer out of our camp sites, and checked out the box of human goodies. You were a big boy but screemed like a little girl. Another reason I loved you. You were so gentle with the beginners that were learning to ride. How am I going to replace you, I can't. There will never be another Cody.

It's hard to look out into the pasture
and not see you there.
It's hard to fill the space in my heart
It feels empty; there's only air.
If I had one more chance,
I wouldn't change a thing.
If I could touch your face again,
If I could cry on your shoulder, just one last time.
Then maybe, just maybe
I could find the strength to say goodbye.

You will always be the King on the Hill.


Colonels Rodeo Cody

March 6, 1996 - August 5, 2013

 Faded Money aka Roanie

1993 - Oct 10, 2011